My love has flown from me
I see it there
But out of reach I grasp thin air
It's not corporeal
This love of which I speak
It's the condition of my heart
That is left so weak
Though strong I am
Once like the lion
Now I've become the lamb
To have it return to me
Its new owner must know
The hidden fact that I won't let go
Hands covered in blood
A soul so black
Redemption never mine
There's no going back
Though I long for that that I can not have
I have given my love
And I will not ask for it back
If it came my way I would turn
I...yes I, fear the deepest burn
To hold true love
Only to have it spurned
To know my truth
You could not stay
I don't deserve to have you in any way
A beast a monster
So I've been told
Though my heart has left me in an act so bold
Yet, your rejection would leave me in the depths so cold
So I lie to keep this shadow of life
Embraced in cockiness, anger and strife
Others thinking I seek another to have as my wife
How unknowing can anyone be
Having eyes and still not see
There could never be another
So long as you imprison the whole of me
I guess my ruse has worked so well
Eyes on flame no one can tell
Heart on clouds is where I dwell
If I go for periods of time untold
It is only sanity I reach to cling
Since hands cannot hold
The reality of breaths tangible need
One thinks that I do not know that once you wore my ring
In another time; life
I called you my wife
Sometimes I hate him for he recalls that shadowed existence
Changed by sacrifice
But what matters much to the populace now
I not alone know the price; it cost me all
Don't think it strange to this place I came with murder in mind
It was my heart I followed
Led nowhere blind
My words I cried of 'don't you leave me'
Daily fed my soul that fervently seeks you
Recall...remember; don't forget
You were mine don't let it pass, feel...just feel damn it, hold fast
Sadness, the joy of our lives together gone
Who cares that war raged, destruction ruled
Now you live in echo somber, aloof...alone
Need it be enough that our distance be close
Now the being that I am not worthy by chance
This cursed time my path so ugly followed
I lean on the other so much better borrowed
Ignorance is bliss or so I've been told
If that be the case then engulf me, enfold
Pain is my constant though death not easily won
I continue, I am, a dead man walking the best at what I do
Fraudulently animate, hiding in collaboration not for sake of the cause
But holding to the hope of a dream that a heart living outside this frame
Somehow desperately communes with its owner again
Dare I think, dream this moment surreal
You turn warm eyes to me
Something other than loathing, but longing I see
A smile so sweet now meets my gaze
Your lips move in slow whisper my ears your voice crave
Oh merciful god you know, but when
Never a word have I spoken how did I betray my secret I thought unbroken
When I am ready this life to forgive
Come to you quickly; all haste
And your heart you shall give
Until that time when I feel all is right
You'll hold my heart safely tucked in your own so tight
Without further words you nod, I bow
I'm coming home my beloved this I do vow
Story Notes:
Please forgive my own bit of license with this poem that may be disjointed, but it's mine and it is what it is. Hope it is worthy of some enjoyment.
Author's Chapter Notes:
Still don't own the characters and they still are just too much fun for me not to borrow them. Please don't get mad at me.
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